Its been a long time since I wrote on here but one is for sure he is still in my oh so complicated life.
Everybody thinks we are lovers however we are not, well not until recently, when we let it get complicated again.
I was happy being friends with the flirting and the cheeky banter, people making incorrect assumptions.
But then you went and changed that by kissing me and all the feelings I had suppressed for you resurfaced to the surfaced and this time I cant get rid of them.
Things are so wierd for us right now and I wish so that I could take this all back and go back to the cheeky flirting and not feeling awkard.
I miss my friend that guy who was there for me no matter what the one I love dearly with all my heart, yeah I get jelouse sometimes but I never wanted t be the girl you hurt.
What angers me and frustrates me is I know you feel the same I could tell from that kiss it was different from that silly drunken moment 5 years ago there was feeling and, then our affair started its so wrong but felt so right and then it ended but we still harbour this torch for one another both of us trying to avoid the situation again.
But now I must let you go, it breaks my heart as I am losing my best friend but I have to move on in order to regain happiness for both of us.
Just know that I love you (A) and that I always will xx
Wednesday 9 January 2013
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